Saturday, April 24, 2010

April, the Sickest Month in a Long, Long Time!

Hi, I think I am back. The past month has been somewhat strange. Right after Easter Scott and I got sick. He was able to work, but I just rested a lot. Then, there was my birthday. Scott helped me to clean house the day before. And then, Scott got sick again. And then, I got sick again. WTF!

All this month I only remember a handful of days I wasn’t sleeping, nauseous, or totally off kilter. It is time for it all to end!

There is not much for me to write about. Unless you want to read about how much I have been sleeping. And eating.

Yes, there is something to write about. I went to my new doctor. When I was weighed, I yelp, “HOLY SHIT!”

I have never weighed so much in my life! I am grossly, morbidly obese! See picture:

Thanks for the photo Carrie Jo!

I have to do something. I know what to do: Exercise more, eat less. Easier said than done. I am now committed to a new program of walking the dogs every day. Even if it is just around the block, I am promising to do it! Girl Scout and Rainbow Girl PROMISE! And folks that is a real promise, not just a threat!

While I was sick the last week, I stopped taking my Lexapro. Okay, I ran out of the med and was so brain-dead I just didn’t order any more. Anyway, here it is seven days since my last pill. I am not suicidal. I am not freaking angry. I do feel some tension, but it is nothing that a walk and play with the dogs would not cure. I am calm.

I have re-ordered another month’s supply, just in case. I also noticed that my new doctor has reduced my trazadone prescription by half. I have emailed her to let her know why I need the full script. It reduces the tension and anxiety. Tension: Jaw clenches so tight I fear I will break a tooth; my internal organs begin to tense, like my diaphragm and lungs get so tense I remember what it was like when I stuttered (another story for another day); and I get very angry at nothing.

Now I need to clean the kitchen. Scott helped out by running the dishwasher several times this past week. He also did several loads of laundry. I really appreciate his help. It made being sick easier knowing I would not have piles of dirty dishes and laundry to greet me when I felt better.


  1. Wow! I hope you are going to feel much better in May. ((Hugs))

  2. Being sick sucks, so sorry to hear it's been going on in your house for so long.
    As for the weight thing, yep, exercise more, eat less sounds so simple and it so is not! Esp if you loathe exercise and love to eat. Sigh.

  3. Sounds like a tough time. Sorry to read that your folks were so badly affected by the ash in the past. All over here now hopefully.